Balderdash & Ballyhoo

The Aches

I just want to be home with my momma, my sister, and my beautiful doggy. There must be a rhythm in which things can fall apart gracefully. Despite how eager I was to leave home, something is drawing me back. I miss the comfort, the quiet, the light, and the colored walls. I miss my family, with the exception of my father. My father is still spiraling downward and moving further into insanity, which makes me worry about my mom and my little sister. I had a little reminder of my dad last night during an argument and it froze my blood. It’s hard to think of anything else, but I need to focus on my work. We’re creeping closer to Thanksgiving break! It may be just a day away from school, but it will still do me well. The end of the semester is also close, which excites me. MCAD is wonderful but is constantly kicking my ass. An art school’s C is equal to an A at some state university, my teachers say. That harsh system sends out an overall feeling of mediocrity. I need energy, that’s all. I’ll work better and feel better. It might be time that I look at some other narcolepsy medications…